Deth

As I have been going through my NPE situation and processing the information, I have joined several related Facebook groups. Facebook has many flaws, and they have an awful and ever-changing group UI is a steaming pile of shit, but they are useful. Some groups were not for me. There was too much pure bitterness and whining, but two were okay. That’s ok, though. We all deal with things differently. I just need to find the right fit for me.

In one of those groups, the book “A Life Half Told: Unraveling my life’s story through DNA” was mentioned. I decided to borrow it for my Kindle.

The book was interesting and so well written, I couldn’t put it down. That rarely happens with this sort of book for me. To be perfectly honest, I don’t read this type of book because I mostly find that type of book to be boring and uninteresting.

It’s like you were living his story. It’s so strange how I saw some similarities in our stories. They were not the same by any means, but there were similarities between them. The most telling one was how he, seemingly like me, mostly grew up knowing what we did not want to repeat.

Reading it actually helped me. The way it ended with forgiveness kept me focused on how that’s my goal through all of this. Of course, I’m pissed, and the trust is gone, but my mom and everyone else who knew and never told me are forgiven. Certainly, they did the best they could do when I was little, although I should have known since then.

The book ended with forgiveness and on a positive note. That’s really how I want this to go. My bonus sibling is great, so I don’t really see going anywhere but positive.